March 2013, changed my life toward a path of inner spirit and reflection of what really matters. I took a leap I had painfully wanted to do for years and at the same time putting it off. I am the courage girl. I have this tattooed on my wrist. Was it disbelief? Loyal to my upbringing to the point I was told I controlled my destiny and how life should be. Fear of not wanting something bigger for myself. Uncertainty to try something so simple that it actually would work?
I reached out to my cousin on the telephone one beautiful morning crying with the message I still can’t feel what I want to feel in my life. My cousin for over 5 years has been writing a grateful email to a disclosed list of “grateful buds” as she calls them. I am a recipient of her email each night. This email has brought my cousin, who is 6 years older than me, very close and had all the signs of being the door opening I desperately needed in my life. You see, I had made huge changes in 2013 – youngest was going off to college and I sold the house and had the city apartment of my dreams in Baltimore. I made huge changes and shifts in myself and became aware of what was not working with myself and detached physically from people and places that were toxic. I was still seeking something deeper in myself that could connect me to my own intentions, love and purpose.
My cousin supported me and coaxed me to write the email and push myself to write 10 things, people, emotions, feelings, events of that day that I was grateful for. I did it and talked about it and shared it and more and more people asked to be on my email list and the simple task of Writing a Grateful Email Changed My Life xo